Upcoming Workshops by Bootcamp Graduates

Breakthrough Bootcamp 2 ended about a month ago. The final activity after 10 weeks of a wonderful Bootcamp was a content-creation workshop; one in which I encouraged participants to create a workshop or event or course of their own.

I’m incredibly impressed (and proud to be honest) of the results. I urge you to check out the following workshops and sign up or join those that resonate with you:

A Return to Masculine + Feminine Polarity

When: Sunday, November 17 11am – 12pm EST
Where: Online: click here for all info
Lead by: Kari Woldum, a trained Breakthrough Bootcamp coach
Description: What is polarity? Discover how the inherent relationship of our masculine and feminine energies can awaken greater vitality. But first we have to unwind a lot of cultural programming and conditioning. In this one-hour primer on polarity, we’ll unpack some of the misunderstandings about how our masculine and feminine energies relate and how harnessing our differences can lead to more creativity, vibrancy, and passion.
For singles and couples.
A link to the video conference will be sent out prior to the event and for those who cannot attend live, a recording will be sent out after.

Need a bit more info? Email kari@kariwoldum.com

Soul Paint Healing

What: 5-week meditative painting course
When: January 2020; follow @soulpainthealing for specifics
Where: Online
Lead by: Kari Dee
Description: Hello Friends,
Drop the mask and breathe into your true self with this beautiful meditative painting course. Over five weeks, become vulnerable as you lovingly dive into the energetic blockages holding you back. This is your opportunity to get real with yourself about why you are seeing “negative” patterns, why your heart feels heavy, or why you have negative relationships with money, relationships, or yourself.
Let it all go and heal with Kari in this Soul Painting course. This course offers the opportunity to meet with a meditation and painting teacher once a week for the duration of the five week course. All students will gather together in a shared space through Zoom, to share a painting meditation experience. Our goal is to excavate our own blockages through guided meditation and use painting as a tool to self-express, and ultimately heal. Early bird prices for this course will start at just $55.00 CAD for the five week course! Follow @soulpainthealing on Instagram for updates on the launch date in January 2020!
With Love, Kari

Course Details:

  • Five classes (2 hours per class. Once per week for the duration of the course)
  • Each class will include: A painting skills lesson, a guided meditation, a group painting session and a group discussion
  • A course materials list will be provided upon registration (minimal cost)
  • You do not need to have any artistic label for yourself in order to find success and support in this class. Painting is simply the beautiful medium through which we will self-express on this journey.
  • More details can be found on our Instagram page @soulpainthealing, or email me at soulpainthealing@gmail.com

Gigi’s Wine & Wisdom Goddess Circle

What: Recurring intentional online wine evening for goddesses
When: First Goddess Circle is Sunday, November 24 from 4-6pm CST
Where: Online. Click here for info.
Lead by: Gigi Bisong, a trained Breakthrough Bootcamp coach
Description: Space is limited to 20. Gather for a beautiful Happy Hour experience as we dive deep into the topic of love and romantic relationships.

The Story: I created Wine and Wisdom about 8 years ago in MN where I would hold these intimate happy hours at hip local salons and boutiques. Women would gather (instead at local crowded noisy bars after work ) at local venues to drink wine, get raw, create deep connections, be seen-heard and loved on like never before and leave with new tools and habits to implement into their worlds.

Deep sister type friendships were created out of these happy hours so I figured its time to bring it to the virtual space – to bring this experience to more lovely ladies!

The Why: I originally created this because I LOVE spaces that bring community and healing together but I was craving a space that felt more like a girls night out than a super serious intense workshop. Don’t get me wrong … I love my intense – mindful spaces but I wanted to quench that part of me that is a bit more playful, sassy and wild and bridge that with healing/meditation. So Welcome to Wine and Wisdom!! Where all of you is welcome.

The Setup: Come as if you are literally going out to a happy hour with your girl friends. Dress in whatever has you feel absolutely like the fabulous beauty that you are. If its yoga pants = great! If its jeans=cool. Do you! Personally I am obsessed with dressing up so a dress will most likely be my chosen attire. Have your wine (or choice of beverage) ready and your most loveliest wine glass!

Cant wait to see all your gorgeous faces on the zoom call!

**You will receive a zoom link via the email that you use to signup**

Starseed Training

What: 11-week channeled course designed to Activate, Align and Awaken us to the highest potential for our Starseed Mission during this incarnation.
When: Starts immediately! (first module is Sunday 11/17)
Where: Online. Click here for info.
Lead by: Jonathan Trinity Martin + others
Description: Do you think you may be a Starseed? Does channeling interest you? Do you see strange lights in the sky or feel your dreams are trying to tell you something? Would you like to live a life more exciting than Luke Skywalker’s?

With a focus upon guiding Starseeds and Wanderers into greater alignment with our calling and mission. Whilst deepening our connection to Unity Consciousness. The STAR Program is a partly channeled program brought to you by Trinity Ra with guest channels Daniel Scranton & Gavin Lim.

With Trinity channeling Ra and the Yahyel. Daniel channeling the Arcturian Council. And Gavin channeling The Many. The course is split into 3 modules designed to assist you in Actualizing, Integrating & Realising the highest potential for your mission on Earth.

Blissful Infinity

What: Online Community, In-Person Monthly Meetings (in the UK), and/or Online Mentoring.
When: Various options. go to www.blissfulinfinity.com
Where: Online and/or in person. Click here for info.
Lead by: Jo De Rosa, a trained Breakthrough Bootcamp coach
Description: Jo De Rosa introduces an online community where we share, story-tell, get vulnerable and honest in a space where you feel safe to speak your truth. Jo will livestream a weekly guided meditation into the group, along with the monthly Blissful Infinity in-person meet up that takes place on the second Thursday of each month. Please feel free to share whatever insights you are having towards becoming more self-realized; each experience is another’s potential permission slip, and in this way the whole group raises its vibration. The intention for this community is to raise the consciousness of the planet, by first making inner shifts which will naturally spill over into everyone and everything around us.
There are three ways to experience Blissful Infinity: Online Community, In-Person Monthly Meeting, and Online Mentoring; all designed for you to realize who you are, understand why you’re here, and learn how best to show up in the world to be of most service to humanity. www.blissfulinfinity.com

Inner Currents

What: A series of upcoming workshops and aquatic jams. Click for info.
When: Click here for info.
Where: Different locations around the world. Click here for info.
Lead by: Ma Prem Arya, a trained Breakthrough Bootcamp Coach
Description: Inner Currents is an invitation to come together and connect with ourselves and each other using water as a medium. An opportunity to open up our hearts and see what it’s like to move in an aquatic landscape that embraces every part of us, and how it is to share space with other people when we are all so empty.

To me, water dancing is based on presence. In water, all of our tensions become obvious, so movement only feels right when we let go of our agendas and drop into the silent moment, really experiencing that space of non gravity where none of our terrestrial rules apply. From this deep connection with ourselves, we move. We discover our inner currents and become a stream together. Then, a space opens up for exploration, play, curiosity, receptivity, surrender. That’s why I chose this name for the project.

Inner Currents can happen anywhere there is water. It can be a pool, hot springs, the warm ocean, etc… At the moment, I am in Thailand, where I’ll be putting on the next workshops and jams. For more information and contact, check out my website https://mapremarya.wixsite.com/innercurrents

99 Dagen Groeispurt

What: An immersive 99-day program in The Netherlands
When: Start date is January 25 2020
Where: The Netherlands (this is an in-person program) Sign up here.
Lead by: Roos Apotheker
Description: 99 Dagen Groeispurt consists of 99 days of various habits and exercises, 6 training days on location and awesome workshops by guest trainers/speakers. You will learn how to master your state of being, transform limiting beliefs and discover more of what truly excites you. 99 dagen Groeispurt takes place in The Netherlands.

I am one of the guest trainers. My workshop will consist of three parts:
Part 1: Feel yourself again: Yoga / Breathing / Meditation session.
Part 2: Exploring your risk or danger zone. An explanation followed by a 45 minute inquiry session, which is a talking meditation with one of your group members, exploring what your risk and danger zone looks like.
Part 3: Creating your risk-zone-challenge: Shape it, paint it, write it and set a deadline. 
Part 4: Setting up a supporting environment to help you reach your goal.

Waterbody: Free Transformational Coaching for 3 Applicants (6 sessions each)

What: Free coaching to 3 applicants
When: Apply ASAP. Click here.
Where: Online. Click here for info.
Lead by: Isabella Amstrup, a trained Breakthrough Bootcamp coach
Description: The founder of Waterbody.co is offering six 45-minute sessions of free transformational coaching each to 3 applicants! Visit www.waterbody.co

This program is designed to crack the code on who you truly are–to bring forth your unique authentic expression and to embody your greatest potential. Over the course of 6 weeks, I will hold a supportive container in which you will be guided to transmute outdated belief systems and ways of being into a life that’s more radically honest and in-alignment to your true self. Through individualized coaching we will:

  • Uncover blindspots and reprogram the subconscious mind
  • Take on a growth mindset by installing powerful foundational habits
  • Utilize imaginative states to envision and anchor in a life of unconditional love, creativity, joy, and abundance
  • Design and implement a lifestyle/sacred practice that is unique to you
  • Deepen your relationship to your true self and the world around you

In the program you will receive:

  • 6 sessions (45 minute calls) of individualized coaching with me
  • Powerful tools, resources, and practices for:
    • De-conditioning/Reprograming the mind
    • Accessing your intuition and creative expression
    • Living in alignment to your greatest potential

To schedule an initial 30 minute consultation CLICK HERE.

Own Your Frequency

What: Free 5-day core transformation
When: Starts Monday, November 24 2019
Where: Online. Click here for info.
Lead by: Tabea Schneider
Description: Starting Monday the 25th  2019  we will be diving deep into our inner being in order to remember who the fuck we are. We will face our shadows and unlock our purpose, power and potential. We will prepare for 2020 with full authority and dedication towards the life we came here to live.

Every day there will be video content as well as homework along with it. There will be live Q&As, guided journeys inward as well as fun games and give-aways. Prior to the starting date we will get to know each other and build a strong base from which we then initiate our quantum transformation. This is what our daily content calendar looks like:

Day 1 Remembering your greatness
Day 2 Reclaiming your power
Day 3 Facing your fears
Day 4 Stepping out of the matrix
Day 5 Unleashing your core codes

And this is where you can join the party: https://www.facebook.com/groups/2408034679465691/

Quantum Leap: Lifestyle Intensive Course

What: 6-week Lifestyle Re-engineering Course
When: Ongoing
Where: Online. Click here for info.
Lead by: Neff, a trained Breakthrough Bootcamp coach
Description: This is an intensive lifestyle building course where you will go through six weeks of practicing and implementing new lifestyle habits that support the highest version of you. During the 6 weeks we will reverse engineer the lifestyle you need in order to accelerate and fully break free of what’s kept you from your dreams. You will gain access to 24/7 support groups, weekly one-on-one coaching, as well as small group calls to check in with your tribe. Lifestyle is the key to being in unwavering alignment, and reaching your goals, and desires. It takes great courage to love yourself and this world so deeply you will let go of what is not in alignment. This is for those of you who are ready to let go, who are ready to devote yourselves deeply to your power, where you no longer are a victim but a creator, no longer controlled by outer forces, but are fully self-sourcing, and manifesting.

Take the leap and sign up now at: http://www.goquantumnow.com

Exploration Workshop

What: 6-week workshop starting December 12, 2019
When: December 12, 2019 – January 24
Where: Online. Click here for info.
Lead by: Paola Gomez
Description: Sooo exited to finally announce this upcoming EXPLORATION WORKSHOP! It is a 6 week workshop from Dec. 12 – Jan. 24. My intention for this workshop is to:

1) Explore our passions, that which lights us up and nurtures us.
2) Discover beliefs that get in the way of realizing our desire.
3) Explore ways of relating to ourselves that leave us with a sense of stability, indestructibility, infinite possibilities and over all well being.


  • Unlimited One-on-One Coaching
  • Weekly video calls via the Zoom platform
    • (These calls will be recorded and available for review at any time)
  • Daily appreciation practices
  • Weekly Meditations
  • Weekly physical activity video

Cost is $88 which is roughly about $15 per week.

I am keeping this workshop small and intimate with a maximum of 15 participants so please only apply if these topics fully resonate with you. Click here for more information.

Announcing: Breakthrough Bootcamp 2

*** Registration is closed! ***

This was a game changer. I would do it 1000 more times. It’s genius.

Just like radio stations, there are parallel versions of you running simultaneously at all times. Ever notice that when you feel bad the thoughts you have access to are doubtful, confused, or—at best—defensive justifications for your stuckness? In these states you don’t feel like yourself. You feel off track. (And don’t get me started about the folks who are always “fine” but are actually just in a rut that has them fooled…we’ll dig deep into that little trap in Bootcamp).

But when you’re lit up and joyful and clear the thoughts you have access to are coherent and constructive and creative. In these states, you feel like yourself. You feel on-track. You’re available to others, you don’t get offended easily, you’re productive, resilient, confident and lighthearted. In these states you’re not concerned about getting fulfilled or reaching your potential because you are already experiencing the version of yourself who is fulfilled and who reaches their potential! You have already turned the dial to that station.

Usually we switch stations randomly or as a result of changing circumstances—but fortunately you can strengthen the muscle of tuning the dial directly. You can master aligning yourself with the version that is truest, freest, wisest, and most generous. You can learn to become yourself.

The caveat is this: it’s not easy with your current momentum. Your current mental and physical environment is designed to support exactly what you currently experience—so trying to have breakthroughs or “figure it out” from where you currently are generally leads to more of the same. (I know from experience).

Breaking through not only your accumulated momentum but also your deeper attachments to fitting in, looking good, or appeasing others requires either a lot of focus and will… or a change in environment like Breakthrough Bootcamp.

I am now comfortable being disliked. Boom.

There is, in my opinion, literally nothing better you could do for yourself or humanity than to master the art of becoming yourself—radically and authentically and freely. That’s why I run Breakthrough Bootcamp.

What is Breakthrough Bootcamp?

Breakthrough Bootcamp is a 70-day (August 1 – October 10) immersive course designed to free you from your self-deprecating patterns, align you with who you really are, and build your confidence in your own capacity to break through regardless of your circumstances. Here’s what you can expect:

  • 3 Daily Habits. When you register for Bootcamp, you agree to complete these habits (which will be disclosed after registration) every single day for all 70 days of Bootcamp. These 3 habits are the backbone of Breakthrough Bootcamp. They build momentum physically, mentally, and emotionally.
  • 10 Instructional Units. Every week there will be a new Unit with a new set of teachings. I will lead most units. Three units will be led by TRULY EPIC guest speakers, including Instagram sage and yoga teacher Jade Alectra, public-speaking guru Johanna Walker, and author and founder of iPEC Coaching Bruce D Schneider. As a bonus, you will get to watch recordings of ALL 4 GUEST SESSIONS from the last Bootcamp (two by Bentinho Massaro, one by Anurag Gupta, and one by Annie Hart).
  • Unlimited private one-on-one coaching with me and my team of new coaches. Each of you will get two 30-minute private coaching calls with me, and unlimited additional coaching calls with the small team of coaches I am personally training.
  • Access to a private Facebook Group with everyone in your Bootcamp. This Facebook Group will contain all of our content and additional content like articles, group conversations and support, spontaneous Facebook Lives by me, etc. You’ll have access to this group as long as Facebook exists.

This was so refreshing for me as well as deepening. I joined to get clarity on my horizontal path and ended up with a thirst for self and infinity that have shifted so much. This is a very complete program for whoever is really ready to break through, to up their game. You’re cracking the code.

Bootcamp Schedule:

(Subject to change)

  1. Welcome & Overview: How to Succeed at This Program (Thursday, Aug. 1)
  2. The Levels of Energy: Raise Your Own Energy (Thursday, Aug. 8)
  3. Be of Useful Service: Your Responsibility to be Confident and Authentic (Thursday, Aug. 15)
  4. Guest Speaker Johanna Walker (Sunday, Aug. 25)
  5. Your Calling: Tune Out the Noise; Familiarize Yourself with You (Sunday, Sept. 1)
  6. Guest Speaker Jade Alectra (Sunday, Sept. 8)
  7. Lighten The F*ck Up: The Life Hack of Play & Improv (Sunday, Sept. 15)
  8. Mind Mastery: Meditate Properly. Think Coherently. (Sunday, Sept. 22)
  9. Guest Speaker Bruce D Schneider (Thursday, Oct. 3)
  10. Wrap Up & Content Creation Workshop (Thursday, Oct. 10)

“Today it really clicked for me. I had been holding Cory up, as people often do with teachers, and today that fell away completely. There is no separation anymore, no sense that “Oh Cory can teach because she is qualified, experienced, and skilled and I am not there yet.” No, it is all about commitment to your own alignment and having a growth mindset – both of which I now have. It’s so simple. I see and understand the importance of my own expression and that we all benefit when we share from an aligned state.

Who Breakthrough Bootcamp is (and isn’t) For:

The process that results in a breakthrough can feel intense and confronting. Having a breakthrough necessarily means transcending and making obsolete something you used to identify with or believe in. When something you identify with gets invalidated, it may feel like YOU are getting invalidated. That can feel threatening.

The only way a breakthrough can happen is if you’re intrinsically motivated to get through the threatening phase and realize the truth beyond it. If you’re intrinsically motivated, you’ll lean in, open up, get curious, take on a growth mindset, and trust the process. If you’re not intrinsically motivated, you’ll freak out. Either you’ll get anxious and withdraw or you’ll lash out and blame the program or you’ll take on the classic “you don’t know me” defense. We’ll spend some time at the beginning of the program calling ourselves out on and exposing our go-to defense mechanisms. 

There’s room for healthy skepticism and real conversations in Breakthrough Bootcamp, but I don’t want to waste much of my or the other participants’ time with counterproductive defense strategies like these.

Therefore, I’ll ask you to check with yourself before registering for Breakthrough Bootcamp 2: are you here because you want to be entertained and you think it might be interesting? Or are you here because you want to uplevel, do the work, and align your life with your calling? 

Please don’t apply if your full intention isn’t to get your hands dirty, engage in the units, take on the prompts and the teachings, and follow through with the daily habits.

Otherwise, game on. I can’t wait to see you in there. 

The results in my outer life toward the end of The Bootcamp, as a result of focusing solely on my inner world, are fucking insane. It’s a whole new world inside and out. So thank you. Keep changing the world. You’re training bulletproof warriors.

Important Details:

Dates: Thursday August 1 – Thursday October 10 (70 days)

Where?: All of Bootcamp happens over Facebook (most coaching calls use Facebook Audio), Zoom (for the group calls), and e-mail.

Cost: $366 per person ($5.23 per day). OR sign up with a friend for $499 TOTAL / $249 each ($3.56 per day). Payment due by midnight MST on Wednesday, July 31st. Nonrefundable.

Register Now:

Register now by submitting this form and paying using Venmo (@corykatuna) or PayPal. You can also pay using the payment buttons below.

Breakthrough Bootcamp $366 Individual Price


Breakthrough Bootcamp $499 Buddy Price for you and a friend ($249 each)


FINISHED! Breakthrough Bootcamp Nov 11 – Jan 15

***This Breakthrough Bootcamp has finished. Find out about the NEXT Bootcamp here. Subscribe to my newsletter to receive updates about future Bootcamps directly to your email.***

When you have a breakthrough you transcend an aspect of your unexamined conditioning; you become lucid where you were previously sleepwalking. When you have a breakthrough you see something that you couldn’t see before; your awareness expands to include something that used to be unconscious programming.

As a result you’re different. You have more options. You have more bandwidth for generosity and creativity. You are freer and more confident. You become less of a validation-seeking, roleplaying character and more of a free agent. You become less bound by the fear-based matrix of social acceptability and more empowered to live your best life. Every time you have a breakthrough you cast your vote for humanity’s best case scenario. Your breakthroughs are your service to the world. 

I can think of no greater use of my time and energy than to create an infrastructure that causes (or at least encourages) breakthroughs in others. That’s why I designed Breakthrough Bootcamp.

What is Breakthrough Bootcamp?

Breakthrough bootcamp is a 66-day (November 11 – January 15) architecture designed to free you from your own limiting perspectives. Here’s what it includes:

  1. 3 Daily Habits. For 66 consecutive days you’ll agree to practice 3 very simple new behaviors. All three combined will usually take less than one hour. I’ll tell you what they are after you register—but I’ve been doing them for the past few months and they’re crucial.
  2. 11 Inspirational / Instructional Units. This is the part of the program I’m most excited about! Every 6 days there will be a new unit—11 in total. The units are teachings or lessons that will inspire you and expedite your growth. Most units will include homework. Bentinho Massaro will lead two units. Anurag Gupta will lead one, and Annie Hart will lead one. These people are my most influential teachers and breakthrough-causers. I am thrilled that you’ll get access to them too. You can scroll down to see the schedule for all 11 units.
  3. Private 1-on-1 coaching with me. I am committed to every participant’s best case scenario through this program so I will offer ongoing free access to my coaching calendar. I request that everyone schedule a one-on-one at the beginning of the program so I can get a feel for your process and help customize your breakthrough.
  4. A private Facebook group with all of the participants in this program. We will have live video calls, share our progress, submit homework, and support each other.
  5. You will have access to the content of this program forever. Transcending the thick matrix of human conditioning is tough—but programs like these serve as little holes in the fabric of that matrix. Whenever you feel stuck or confused or overwhelmed, you’ll be able to return to this reminder of your true brilliant nature beyond the limitations of our social programming. 

Bootcamp Schedule: 11 Units

  1. Welcome + Overview: How to Succeed at this program (Nov. 11)
  2. The 7 Levels of Energy: How to monitor your own alignment (Nov. 17)
  3. Your Calling: Tune out the noise, familiarize yourself with you (Nov. 23)
  4. Guest Lesson by Bentinho Massaro (Nov. 28)
  5. Be of Useful Service: Your responsibility to be authentic (Dec. 4)
  6. Guest Lesson by Anurag Gupta (Dec. 10)
  7. Lighten Up: Practice playfulness, creativity, generosity (Dec. 16)
  8. Guest Lesson by Annie Hart: Come home to your heart (Dec. 22)
  9. Surprise Unit (Dec. 28)
  10. Guest Lesson by Bentinho Massaro #2 (Jan. 3)
  11. The Grand Finale (Jan. 9)

Important details:

Dates: Sunday November 11, 2018 – Saturday January 15, 2019 (66 days)

[Payment & Registration information removed because this Bootcamp has finished]

If I Had 24 Hours To Live, I Would Admit How Much I Love Bentinho Massaro

I want to admit stuff.

I want to share myself as I am instead of the way I think will cause me less hassle later. For the most part the way I write and share now—especially online—is calculated. I have a paranoid aversion to haters and I make sure to write and share in a way that limits their access to me. I’m aware of certain long-term repercussions of saying certain unpopular things and I temper those messages. The way I share—or don’t share—does more to honor my insecurities than my calling.

But what if I knew I was going to die tomorrow? What if I didn’t have to deal with the social repercussions of being totally honest; the dent in my reputation that could result from sharing my perspective fearlessly with no concern about your judgment?

Strangely, as I’ve considered this, I’ve discovered that the less I care about your opinion, the more I care about you and the rest of humanity. The less interested I am in getting social validation from people, the more able I am to produce something disruptive and beneficial and transformative for them. The less scared I am of you, the more I can help you. And imagining that I’ll die soon is the easiest way I know to generate that courage.

So here’s the truth:

If I had 24 hours to live, I would do way more than admit that I love Bentinho Massaro, I would spend most of those hours making content about him.

Not about the character; the 30-year-old controversial cigar-smoking spiritual teacher, though I adore him too. I would make content about what Bentinho is; what he has given his life to; what he represents. He is no longer a person with personal preferences and biases and attachments and agendas. He doesn’t live for his own comfort or happiness or success or progress: he literally exists to cause people to wake up and remember what they actually are: source. The self. The one infinite creator.

If I had 24 hours to live I would tell people that Bentinho’s teachings are genius and efficient and they lead you to yourself. They bring you home to you. Bentinho is a representative of your true self—not his own external agenda. He is patiently, generously busting his ass moment after moment despite almost everyone’s reluctance and skepticism and judgment (on one level or another) so that you can remember your true nature; your limitless freedom; your infinite potential; your timeless perfection.

I had my first glimpse of self realization at the end of Bentinho’s 2-week [free] meditation immersion called the Sedona Experiment. For about 30 minutes I laughed and laughed at the familiarity. So obvious, so true. I was myself. Oh right, duh. How could I forget? How sweet that I had been so convinced I was this isolated person on Earth, wandering around working on herself, trying to get somewhere or become something. This realization was truer than anything science could ever prove to me. Truer than gravity or math or my name. It was directly true. Experientially true. It was the first time in my life I’ve felt absolute—not relative—confidence.

Then I looked at Bentinho and I started crying. Tears of overwhelming gratitude. How could someone be so patient? How could someone be so generous? I felt immediately sorry for ever doubting him; for ever thinking he had his own hidden agenda for power or recognition. The only thing he got from that experience was that I woke up to myself. He spent his own money, time, and energy for me to remember me. That is what he lives for. That is what he is.

If I had 24 hours to live I would endorse and defend the meticulous example of his teachings which is his life. I would tell people to trust him and follow him and I would explain why. I would address the common judgments and reservations and fears people have about him and I would explain how to use those fears not as evidence to support your judgments but as good information you can use to see your own blind spots and make leaps in your own growth. I would teach people how to use his teachings and how not to use his teachings.

I would talk about all the other transformational workshops and spiritual teachings I’ve been through and why they’re useful but incomplete relative to Bentinho. I would describe what it’s been like traveling with this guy, working with him, attending dozens of his events, going through 4 years of ups and downs with him, and even leaving and later returning to his teachings. I would describe what it is about him that continues to bring me to tears of gratitude and awe almost daily. I would make it abundantly clear that there is nothing to fear—this guy is nothing but pure service, generosity, and brilliantly disruptive teachings. 

I would admit that I think this is history in the making—future generations may remember Bentinho like we remember Gandhi or Mother Teresa. I would explain why that’s not an exaggeration.

I know all this because I’ve spent a lot of time and energy subconsciously trying to disprove him. I wanted to prove that Bentinho was egotistical and immature. I wanted to prove that following a spiritual teacher was a dangerous and imbalanced way to grow. I wanted to prove that I was better off paving my own path. As a result this is something I know with more certainty than almost anything else, and this is what I want to share: following Bentinho (with the right attitude and approach) works. 

Now, maybe one in every 100 people is bright enough or exhausted enough to be ready for this. That’s okay. My fear of losing the 99% of people who might not resonate with what I’m saying is what kept me from writing this sooner.

So when I say “following Bentinho works” I’m talking to everyone who gets it on an intuitive level even if you don’t get it conceptually. The alternative reality you crave— where people are real and transparent and they take responsibility for themselves; where taboos and identity and political correctness are burnt away before they can fester; where limiting beliefs get exposed effortlessly, gently, without significance or tedious processes; where being uncompromisingly authentic isn’t an act of social defiance—it’s expected; where the point of coming together is to untangle ourselves from attachment so we can optimize our service to humanity—this reality that you seek exists and is available at the highest level right here.

If Bentinho Died

Similarly to if I had 24 hours to live, if Bentinho died I would shift into high gear and admit all of this stuff. Easily.

If Bentinho died I would have no reservations about saying these things—I would describe him exactly as I know him to be. No sugar coating. No warming you guys up like I just did with that soft, relatable introduction. If Bentinho died I would feel immediately that I had failed to tell the truth and fully acknowledge the biggest influence in my life while he was alive.

The biggest source (he would probably correct me and say “reminder” or “reflection” instead of “source”) of inspiration, clarity, hope, confidence, direction, compassion, and purpose I have ever known—for me and thousands of others—is alive right now. I have the stunning privilege to know him well and to be around him day after day. And I am lucky enough to have a sharp, curious mind, a trusting heart, and a charismatic, articulate personality—which means I have the capacity—currently—to endorse him, strengthen his influence, and share his wisdom with more people. And yet I’ve been slow to represent him; to honor the truest thing I have ever known. I have been indulgent of my preference for comfort and social validation. And that is selfish. I don’t regret anything yet but if Bentinho died before I stood proudly at his side, claimed him publicly as my leader and inspiration, and dedicated myself to the proliferation of his work (for the vision we share), I would regret that forever no matter how much I made up for it later.

The truth is that the way I feel about Bentinho is inexplicable and beyond anything I’ve known or heard anyone else describe. It’s not just love. It feels like purpose. Honor. The reason I’m alive. I can’t help but think of that quote by Oprah:

“there is no greater gift you can give or receive than to honor your calling. It is why you where born and how you become most truly alive”

My calling has a lot to do with Bentinho. And helping all of you understand him, get over your projections and opinions about following a teacher or his controversial personality, and get serious about doing the work.

What have I learned from Bentinho?

To try to answer this question is silly. I’ve learned thousands of subtle, perfectly-timed lessons from Bentinho. Every single time I’m around him I’m learning. I’ve been humbled countless times just by watching him speak to others; noticing his compassion for people who would irritate me, seeing him transform an impossible dynamic into a breakthrough nobody saw coming, delicately working with someone who seems to make no progress only to discover two months later that for her the impact was paramount. I have several notes in my phone saturated with spontaneous quotes from Bentinho. Here’s a recent one:

“True confidence is open. It’s humility. Insecurity expresses itself as arrogance or stubbornness. Why the fuck are you insecure? Be humble! Insecurity is a separating principle. Everybody else on Earth is worthy but you’re the unique one? You’re the one, special unworthy human who is separate from creation? How arrogant is that?”

So instead of trying to summarize everything I’ve learned from him, I’ll promise to share moving forward.

I have the luxury of spending lots of time with the most prolific enlightened person of our time. I love learning from him (it’s the schooling I always wished I had as a kid)—and I often get inspired to share what I’m learning. But until recently I’ve found reasons to hold back.

Enough of that. I’m in. Enough arrogance disguised as insecurity. This is what’s true for me. This is what you can expect from me. This is what matters to me most. This is what I love more than anything. This is the work I want to dedicate my life to. This is the path I’m here to support and clarify and promote and share. Whether it’s on Instagram, or here on my blog for longer essays, or videos on Facebook / YouTube.

I’m up.

Developing A Growth Mindset: Why I Tried (and stuck with) Freediving

I spent last month learning the scariest, most enchanting sport I’ve ever tried: freediving.

Freediving (also called Apnea) is where you go as deep as you can in the water on a single breath. There’s no air tank or special breathing equipment: just a person (usually in a wetsuit, sometimes with goggles, flippers, and a weight belt) swimming vertically toward the bottom of the ocean. 

I was scared. People have died doing this. I have a fear of the ocean (my closest near-death experiences have been in water). I have no long-term goals associated with freediving. There’s no real reason for me to do this. I wanted a good excuse not to freedive.

But I was going to Dahab, Egypt—a diving mecca—for a month with a group of friends and most of them were taking the course. We had a group discount. It was now or never. But most importantly, I had just finished reading The Confidence Code by Katty Kay and Claire Shipman where I learned about the growth mindset.

The Growth Mindset, as coined by Carol Dweck, describes a refreshing, confronting, and—most importantly—useful attitude for conquering self-limitation. Here’s a snippet from a great overview on brainpickings. (I recommend you click that link and read the whole thing):

“At the heart of what makes the growth mindset so winsome, Dweck found, is that it creates a passion for learning rather than a hunger for approval. Its hallmark is the conviction that human qualities like intelligence and creativity, and even relational capacities like love and friendship, can be cultivated through effort and deliberate practice. Not only are people with this mindset not discouraged by failure, but they don’t actually see themselves as failing in those situations—they see themselves as learning…”

“Why waste time proving over and over how great you are when you could be getting better? Why hide deficiencies instead of overcoming them? Why look for friends or partners who will just shore up your self-esteem instead of ones who will also challenge you to grow? And why seek out the tried and true instead of experiences that will stretch you? The passion for stretching yourself and sticking to it, even (or especially) when it’s not going well is the hallmark of the growth mindset. This is the mindset that allows people to thrive during some of the most challenging times in their lives.”

After reading The Confidence Code I saw that in many areas of my life, I had a fixed mindset—not a growth mindset—and that was contributing to the majority of my dissatisfaction.

Since I discovered this distinction I’ve been able to trace most of my suffering back to having a fixed mindset. Whether I feel anxious or embarrassed or jealous or judgmental or confused—I can reliably identify a conclusion I made somewhere along the way that says: “I don’t have what it takes to deal with this.” Or “I’m never going to get this.” Or “There’s something wrong with me.”

Fortunately, switching mindsets is always available and it works immediately—that’s what I love about it most—it just takes remembering to apply it when you feel resistance; it just takes practice.

I would not have tried freediving if I hadn’t yet learned about the growth mindset—and there’s no chance in hell I would have stuck with it.

I consciously switched over to the growth mindset dozens of times while practicing freediving. But this moment stands out:


It was the end of AIDA 2, the second level of training. Out of our group of around 15 people who started training together, Keilan and I were the only two left. Everyone else either had trouble equalizing (popping) their ears or lost interest or didn’t reach the depth required to move on.

We were at the Blue Hole (a 400+ foot hole in the ocean right outside of Dahab) and Keilan and I were gearing up to finish the course with Lily—the most hardcore of the instructors, a record-holder, and the manager of the center. This meant we had to complete specific safety dives, prove that we could dive to 16 meters easily (though we were aiming for 20), and not make any big mistakes. 

Everyone else was snorkeling, doing chill practice dives or sipping mango juice at the overlooking restaurant. I had performance anxiety. I was looking for any excuse not to get into the water.

Then Lily pulled me, Keilan and Bentinho aside and asked me what was up. “Do I intimidate you?” I told her hell yeah she intimidates me. She laughed and reassured me there was no pressure—and told me I didn’t have to complete the course today if I didn’t want to.

Then Keilan made me laugh by calling me a pussy. Then Bentinho said “remember that you’re doing this for yourself.”

Oh right. I’m doing this for myself. The reason I was doing this sport in the first place was to practice the growth mindset; to create a passion for learning rather than a hunger for approval; a passion for stretching myself and sticking to it even (or especially) when it’s not going well. This exact moment—the moment where it gets hard and I want to quit—this is the moment to shift my mindset.

I geared up and got in the water, repeating to myself “I don’t want to and I’m going to.”

And then we finished the course.

And then I finished the following course after Keilan quit… pussy. 😉

7 Days With Camels and Bedouins: Reflections from The Egypt Desert Trek

A few months ago I invited people to apply for an 11-day camel trek in Egypt. I had never formally led a group trip before. I had never been to Egypt. And I had never met Georgina, the woman with whom I was organizing this event. I had no clue if people would apply, if we would pull it off, or if it would be successful.

A few days ago I returned home to Colorado after 5 incredible weeks in Egypt—the last week and a half was the camel trek. People applied. We pulled it off. It was successful.

The word “successful” is a low-resolution way to summarize this trip. It was stunning. It was unexpected. It was inspiring. It was filled with lessons and breakthroughs. It was hilarious. It was intense. It was slow and dry and heart-warming.

In order to give you a good hearty feel for this trip, I’ll give you a practical overview and then I’ll summarize my most memorable moments and takeaways (with photos).

Photo by Anurag Gupta

The Overview:

The camel trek itself was 7 days. The two days before were for participants to arrive in Dahab, catch up on sleep, enjoy the ocean, and gear up. The two days after we spent relaxing at restaurants, visiting the blue lagoon, snorkeling, and soaking up our last days in paradise.

The 7 trek days in the middle were full-on: no bathrooms, no rest stops, no beds, no tents, no modern comfort—just 9 participants, 8 Bedouins (natives who are more comfortable in the desert than the city), a seasoned guide named Joyce, and 20 camels.

For the most part we just spent time together. We played. We talked some but not much. We climbed rocks, rode camels, walked, laughed with the Bedouins, ate, spent time alone, meditated, reflected, sat around the fire, and appreciated the planet.

Thanks to the simplicity of the trip, reflection and introspection were more productive and powerful than usual. Whenever I felt tension or misalignment I became immediately (and non-urgently) aware of the stuck point. And due to the nature of this trip, I had the spare time and energy and bandwidth to focus on cleaning up whatever was clouding my experience. With less noise and distraction, the relevant lessons were loud and clear.

I should also note that the group of participants was no ordinary bunch. Georgina and I were surprised when Bentinho Massaro—perhaps the most influential leader / teacher in both of our lives—applied to join our trek. Bentinho brought Anurag Gupta—a former Landmark Forum leader and current high-impact change agent. In addition to those two came Allison McLarty, Ruth Segal, Alinde Prins, Marcelle Wijnand, and Jocelyn Daher. 5 bright, mission driven women with a lot of self awareness and a ‘bring it on’ attitude. The group was awesome.

Here are a few memories, lessons and takeaways that stuck with me:


Memories, Lessons, Takeaways:

Don’t Preach. Be Authentic and Share.

The first night of the trip we were sitting around the fire, laughing and small-talking, and I felt the uncomfortable responsibility to do something; say something; lead; make it intentional; get people talking. I said something like this: “Okay hey guys, welcome, here we are! So I would like to just have everyone go around and say their intention for this trip. Who wants to start?” Crickets.


Finally Ruth spoke up and said “well I want to finish my dinner first but then I can go first.”

Everyone went around and said their intentions but the activity felt dry and heavy. I was uncomfortable the whole time. Bentinho was laughing knowingly. I was eager to go find somewhere to set up my sleeping bag.

The next day I asked Anurag for some coaching around the situation. He was quick:

“Yeah why weren’t you just authentic?”


“Why didn’t you just say what was up for you? Something like ‘Hey guys—I feel some responsibility to get more of an intentional discussion going just to set us up for an awesome trip, but I’m a little nervous and I’ve never done this before. Is that something you guys want too?’

When he said that I facepalmed. Obviously.

I realized that by trying to direct traffic and make something happen ‘over there’ I wasn’t being responsible at all for the thing I wanted to generate. What makes an intentional dialogue unique is that it’s real and transparent and open. By instructing people to go around the circle and say their intention, I was role-modeling the opposite. 

I’m especially grateful for this lesson because I’ll be co-leading another trip to Peru in a month with an emphasis on group activities, digging in, and pushing our comfort zones. (a few spots are still open).


Thinking Is For Doing.

The first few days my thoughts felt disproportionately out of sync with my experience. There were more of them than necessary. There were more thoughts than made sense for what I had to think about each day. I’ve never had that happen before. In my day-to-day life I don’t notice trivial thoughts because there’s lots to do and lots of variety. I get messages and notifications and updates on my phone, I run into people while I’m out. I have to make decisions about what to eat, what to wear, what to do with myself. As a result, my redundant and unnecessary and counterproductive thoughts get camouflaged by all the diversity of experience.

In the desert there’s not much to do. You get on the camel. You ride the camel. You get off the camel. You eat. You pee. You poop. You clean up after yourself. You set up your sleeping bag. You walk around. You look at stuff. You talk to people. You play. You sleep. And everyone else does the same thing. There’s no urgency or pressure or problem solving. There’s not much to think about.

It reminds me of a quote my mom often says: Thinking is for doing. In the desert, thinking for thinking’s sake gets old and dried out. In the desert, the only thinking you need to do is the thinking that precedes doing. 

On the second or third day I told Musa, one of the Bedouins, that my brain was too fast. He laughed and told me that everyone’s brain is too fast and I needed more time in the desert. A couple days later he followed up and asked how my brain was. I was glad to tell him it had slowed down. By the end of the trip I felt steady and mentally aligned with the circumstances.



Humans are resilient and adaptable.

On the first night we ate a boatload of Bedouin bread—a delicious stretchy homemade bread they make from scratch and cook on the fire each night. The next morning Allison and I woke up with puffy faces. That’s something both of us expect to happen when we eat too much bread (worth it). That night we ate a boatload of Bedouin bread again, expecting the same symptom. The next morning we both woke up looking normal. Quick adaptation.

Same thing with my sleep. After one day of waking up with the sun I was switched over to a new sleep cycle.

I noticed the same adaptability in lots of areas. After one night we were happy and comfortable sleeping outside on sand and rocks. After a few days we were able to walk or ride camels long distances without getting sore. Even the solitude and the silence was easy to adapt to—by the end of the trek most of us felt like we could go another week or two roughing it in the desert.

I like this lesson because it contradicts a bias I tend to have about us humans: that we’re slow learners, stuck in our ways, and many of us just can’t change. On the contrary, we’re instant learners with a strong capacity to adapt when placed in environments that require adaptation. 

This motivates me to be picky about my environment(s) and intentional about what I’m adapting to.

Photo by Alinde Prins

Be Like The Bedouins

If I had to summarize what I learned from the Bedouins in one sentence, I’d say this:

Do less, play, be a good person, pray. 

Do less. The Bedouins are minimalists who lack nothing. They use what they need and nothing more, and as a result they seem masterful. They’re precise and tidy and attentive. When they make a fire, they burn exactly as much wood for exactly as much time as is needed to heat the water and cook the food. Then they let it go out. They don’t gather more wood than they need and they don’t burn more wood than is required to heat food.

Play. The Bedouins are funny and playful and chattery. They’re goofballs. One thing Musa kept saying was that they liked us because we joked with them the entire time. We made fun of Ataiwi’s habitual single-cough that produced no mucus. We made fun of our tragic inability to pronounce “bhabecumculco” (definitely not the right spelling) which means “I love you guys.” They made fun of us when we failed over and over to toss bedouin bread. They taught us to play backgammon. We tried to teach them to play a rock-toss game but they turned it into a sprinting-tackle match. The mood was perpetually, authentically light. Even around heavier topics, the Bedouins sustained and shared genuine, contagious joy.

Be a good person. This reputation preceded them. We spent several weeks in Dahab before meeting the Bedouins or beginning the camel trek, so we’d met other Bedouins and heard others describe Bedouins. The Bedouins are good people. Plain and simple. They are lighthearted and honest and generous. They have integrity engrained in their culture and their identities. Before the trek I asked my friend Ammar (a local) if he ever hears Bedouins making fun of western tourists in Arabic. He looked surprised and shook his head. “No. Bedouins are so nice.”

Pray. Every day, five times a day (each on their own, not all together), the Bedouins pray. But they don’t just do a quick prayer before they start eating and continue on—they leave the group, prepare a space, wash themselves, and repeat a physical ritual several times. They are fully present from start to finish. Undistracted and dutiful. Watching them pray was meditative—you can feel the devotion and the honor and the love.

Watching them pray uprooted an assumption I had about religion. My belief before was that Muslims were lost in the religion part of spirituality (the dogma and the judgment and the rules); that they were more radical and therefore less connected to the universal source that is independent from religion. But watching them pray—seeing that their connection was real—made me realize how alike we all are in spirituality. Their prayer is my meditation is an atheist’s intuition. Their connection to Allah is my connection to source is a Christian’s connection to God. I had a bias that stricter religions and belief systems necessarily correlated with a weaker connection to source. What I learned was that someone’s connection to source is not determined by how they got there. 



Jump On In.

Toward the end of the trek I felt especially available for people. I felt clear and aligned and happy to share. But whenever we were having group discussions, it was painfully obvious how much more skillful Bentinho and Anurag were at making a difference for others and causing breakthroughs than I was.

At moments when I felt like I had a useful model or strategy or insight for someone, I would stay quiet and observe Bentinho or Anurag jump in. Then I would watch as the entire group upleveled. Instead of just answering their question or reframing their concern, these guys would do alchemy. That’s really how it felt—what used to be a paradox was now resolved and packaged into something that’s useful for each person in a distinct way. Whenever that happened I was grateful that I hadn’t shared when I felt inclined to share. 

I told Anurag this and he retorted: “You think I started out like this? You’re going to suck in the beginning no matter what so jump on in.” 


And last but not least…

Happy Camel, Happy Trek.

I was paired up with Tunesi. The happiest, strongest, smartest, most affectionate camel of the bunch (in my opinion). Musa (Tunesi’s owner) loves Tunesi and has had him since he was a young camel. You can hear Musa in the background on the video below telling me to “give him more” (cant stop at just half a bottle of water). I think this made a difference—the fact that Tunesi was treated well, had been with the same human for his whole life, and understood his job made for an awesome experience for me. Some of the other camels were just recently traded or purchased from traders and you could tell that they were hesitant or untrusting.

Joyce, our guide and the owner of Desertjoy, runs a foundation dedicated to camel health and happiness. One thing this foundation does is buy camels out of the trade and gives them to Bedouin families so they can get personalized treatment, care and training. This also gives the Bedouins more sustainable income. 

By trekking with her and her team of Bedouins we were supporting a bigger mission.

For your pleasure, here is a video of me giving Tunesi some water.


Head’s up…

I fell in love with Egypt—Dahab specifically. The people, the energy, the culture, the life. I’m already ready to go back and I want to share it with people. Fortunately, I met a special character who is going to help me make this happen. Ammar (see pic below) is from Cairo and has been in Dahab for 6 years designing wonderful, custom experiences for tourists. It’s his passion. He worked with our group of over 20 people (before the camel trek) so we got to see firsthand what a pro he is. And he’s energized about creating the next Egypt trips with me later this year. (Whenever we start scheming on trip details we LIGHT UP and our brainstorming session flies by). It’s game on.

The details are still in the works, but we’re looking at two back-to-back group trips throughout Egypt. The first one will be the first two weeks of October and the second will be immediately afterward for about 10 days. These will be high-quality retreats. Unique accommodation, excellent service, local access, and options for one-off experiences like freediving or kite surfing courses if you’re up for it. Folks can either apply for the 2 week chunk, the 10-day chunk, or the whole thing (there wont be any overlap on where we go or what we do).

The Theme: Play + Pause. We’re designing a flow that goes back and forth between activity / exploration / discovery / fun—and relaxation / time for yourself / reflection. This theme resonates for a few reasons. First because it’s generative—action and reflection (or play and pause), when balanced well, cause creativity. We want to create an environment that enlightens, transforms perspectives, and inspires action.

I haven’t officially announced these trips yet but if you’re IN and down to pay your deposit as soon as it is announced, let me know (through facebook or instagram or the “say what’s up” link in my menu) and I’ll keep you on the “early adopter” list—ya’ll will get a discount. (Now that I’ve organized a couple trips I appreciate you early adopters!)




2-Week Adventure in Peru: Applications Open

Applications are officially open for ALIVE in Peru!

From May 19 – May 31 2018, join me, Anna Skuba, our apprentice Aspen Bentley, and our troupe of 10 wonderful people for an edge-of-your-comfort-zone trek through Cusco, Peru.

There are 7 spots available (10 people total). Early bird prices end after February 28 and second tier prices end after March 9 (more info below). Our goal is to pull together a high-energy, low-maintenance group of leaders who are down to take ownership, stretch their comfort zone, open up, and say yes. Read this page completely and if it doesn’t feel like a “F*ck Yes,” don’t apply.

…But if it does, you’re probably exactly the kind of person we want on this trip.



What To Expect

May 19: Arrive in Cusco (or ideally a day or two before to acclimate to the high altitude—we will get up to 15,200 feet!) We will pay for everyone’s lodging the night of the 19th. For the days before, you will pay an additional $30/night.

At 6pm on May 19 we have a Mandatory Trek Briefing. 

May 20 – May 24: Early wakeup on the 20th for our 5-day Salkantay Trek to Machu Picchu. Click here for the full rundown—it’s enchanting.  Here’s a brief look at what this 5-day trek will entail:

  • Over 40 miles of hiking through different ecosystems—from snowy mountains to a glacier lake (see Lake Humantay photo above) to the tropical rainforest with fruit trees and waterfalls
  • A day in Machu Picchu (see photo above)
  • Trekking through the “cloud forest” in the upper Amazon jungle
  • A private chef, professional guides, and horses to carry most of our gear
  • Various small towns, base camps, and back trails with few tourists
  • Organic coffee, orange, and avocado plantations
  • Sleeping in glass igloos (see Sky Camp photo above), newly constructed jungle domes, and Andean huts
  • Delicious, highly-reviewed meals every day

May 24 – May 31: After our adventure we will get dropped off late at night on the 24th at our 3-story group house in central Cusco. On the 25th we will rest up, settle in, and gear up for our retreat week. Here’s what you can expect for our week at la casa:

  • Every participant will be responsible for leading at least one main activity for this trip. In your application below we ask that everyone includes a pitch: What activity might you lead? Be creative! It could be as simple as guiding a meditation or hide-and-seek in the woods, or as full-on as an improv comedy show or a volunteer project with locals or a hackathon at the house. We will help you organize, get tickets, budget and prepare for whatever you choose to lead, but you’re in charge.
  • Every night we will come together for a big yummy family dinner together. No phones, no distractions, just us. We will dedicate these dinners to sharing and listening (one microphone rule), playing games like fishbowl or the psychology game, going around the circle answering tough prompts, or even challenging ourselves by doing an entire dinner in complete silence.
  • Every day you can count on having free time to do your own thing (or organize something spontaneous). There’s a ton to do in Cusco. We’ll send out more information to the confirmed participants.

May 28: Full-Day Ausangate Rainbow Mountain Trek (see photo above)

May 30: Last day surprise activity 😉 followed by a send-off feast.

May 31: Check out of our group house and fly away. BUT—Cory, Aspen and Anna are staying an additional week bouncing around hostels, exploring, and possibly making a trek to Lake Titicaca. So after May 31 you’ll need to cover your own expenses, but you’re welcome to stay longer and travel with us.


Apply If This Applies To You…

  • You have a valid passport
  • You’re in good physical shape (can trek 40+ miles and up to 15,000 ft. altitude)
  • You feel alive as you read these intentions:

5 Intentions for ALIVE in Peru:

  1. Adopt an Attitude of Improvisation. We are generating this trip together. We are all supporting actors. In other words this isn’t about you consuming a vacation that someone else is organizing for you, this is us creating something as a team. Here are the 4 rules of improvisation according to Tina Fey:
    • Agree. This doesn’t mean literally agreeing with what anyone says or does—but instead of flagrantly rejecting or contradicting them, use your energy instead to understand, engage, and move forward.
    • Say YES, AND. Fully accept the reality that you’re in, then contribute to it. Again, you don’t have to agree in order to accept a situation or a person or an idea for what it is. Listen, lean in, add value.
    • Make Statements. Whatever the problem, be part of the solution. Don’t just sit around raising questions and pointing out obstacles.
    • There are no mistakes. Only opportunities. SOMETHING WILL GO WRONG. The way you interpret and handle it determines whether or not it was a mistake or an opportunity.
  2. Push Your Comfort Zone: This trek is going to be hard. Spending this much time immersed with the same people could be challenging. Stepping up and leading a group activity might be intimidating. Some of our group conversations might get uncomfortably vulnerable. Expect this. Move toward this. Resist the urge to close down when it gets overwhelming. The edge of your comfort zone is the hardest and most growth-saturated place you can be.
  3. Open Up To Deep Connections: Every night we will get together for dinner without our phones or anything to distract us and we will get to know each other. Everyone will speak and everyone will listen. We’ll look each other in the eyes and connect on a level many of us don’t anymore.
    We will walk 40 miles together. We do things none of us have ever done before together. We’ll get playful and lovey and irritated and tired and generous and grateful together. We will lead each other and follow each other.
    For these two weeks, give yourself permission to be vulnerable, open up, let people in, and share yourself.
  4. Take Ownership: Ownership changes the game. When people have ownership of a project something shifts: they care and support it and bring it to life. During this retreat you will take ownership for leading or facilitating or organizing some aspect of the trip. Don’t worry—we will help you make it epic—you’re not alone : )
    But this is not a lazy, chill-by-the-pool vacation. This is real and present and alive. Add value. Instead of consuming this trip, generate it.
  5. Play. Don’t take yourself too seriously. Try stuff. Be resilient. Compete. Let yourself look bad. Opt in. Get weird.



  • Early bird (apply by February 28) $1,990
  • Normal bird (apply by March 9): $2,290
  • Late bird (apply by March 30): $2,490
  • Where you been bird: (apply by April 20): $2,690

Price Includes:

  • Lodging from May 19 – May 31
  • Group transportation in / around Cusco from May 19 – May 31
  • Group travel insurance (including medical coverage)
  • Big lovely group dinners every night
  • Simple breakfasts every morning
  • Snacks for around the house
  • 5-Day Machu Picchu Trek (all inclusive)
  • 1-Day Ausangate Rainbow Mountain Trek (all inclusive)
  • Other group activities in Cusco (including the ones you lead)

Price Does NOT Include:

  • Flights to and from Cusco
  • Lodging and transportation for days before May 19 and after May 31
  • Additional snack foods, souvenirs, or anything personal
  • Alcohol
  • Tips for tour guides

If you want to secure your spot but can’t pay the full amount yet, let us know.

Refund Policy:

  • Cancel within 24 hours, 100% refund.
  • Cancel before March 1, 75% refund.
  • Cancel between March 1 and April 1, 50% refund.
  • Cancel on or after April 1, no refunds.


Apply Here


Once you’re confirmed and paid, we will send you an information packet, a waiver to sign, and a list of the information we’ll need from you.

Once our whole group is confirmed we will invite everyone to a WhatsApp group chat so we can ask & answer questions, bounce ideas off of each other, and stay in the loop.

For anything else, feel free to reach out to Cory (katuna@me.com) or Anna (annaskuba@gmail.com). 

**Please share this with anyone you think would be perfect for this trip! Our goal is to have a curated group of wonderful people—so the more eyes we can get on this the better.

11-Day Trek In Egypt: Applications Open

Wanna come to Egypt?


This is THE FIRST OFFICIAL international group trip / collaborative retreat / meditation excursion and we’re looking for the right 10 people to come along.

Here’s the deal: read through the description and if it resonates, apply by writing me a short message to let me know why. It’s important to us to curate an incredible group so after you reach out we’ll set up a group call to see if it’s a good fit 🙂

(FYI: If this trip doesn’t resonate, I’ll be leading more this year with different themes and intentions so stay tuned). 

From this March 27 – April 6, 2018, join me, my friend and co-host Georgina, a private professional guide, a team of Bedouin (nomads) and a herd of camels for an 11-day trip in Egypt for up to 10 people.

Here’s the main filter—(and be honest, this should either energize you or repel you):

Expect nothing.

Okay, of course there will be structure. We’ll meditate in the mornings. We’ll eat together. We’ll have our transportation and logistics figured out ahead of time. We’ll play games and encourage each other to lead activities and get to know the Bedouins and probably develop some inside jokes. We’ll get a solid break from our work and our phones and our daily tedium. We’ll sleep under the stars some nights. We’ll spend most of our time silently trekking through the Dahab desert on camelback. We’ll get attached to the camels and probably each other…

When you see “Expect nothing,” take it less literally and more energetically. It’s the attitude we’re looking for from the group we take. We want a group of people who are wide-eyed and ready and curious. People who are low-maintenance and supportive and non-dramatic. People who are excited about being encouraged to drop their expectations and attachments in order to be right here right now. We want to know we’re spending 11 days with people who feel the same way we feel: in love. Present. Light. Grateful. Open.

In other words, don’t apply if you’re looking for a conventional tourist vacation. This trip is not about being entertained or stimulated. It’s simpler (and perhaps harder) than that: be present and open and loving and empty. Over and over and over and over.

The truth is: we don’t know what to expect either, so how could you? But we know [and love] how it feels. If you feel that too, we want you on our trip. 

Some specifics:


  • Deadline to confirm with minimum $600 payment: January 22
  • Deadline to pay in full: February 1 (Absolutely no later than February 15)

Dates: March 27 – April 6, 2018 (11 day trip with 7 days in the desert)

Cost: $1,700 excluding airfare

Cost includes:

  • 7-day journey in the Dahab desert (with a professional guide (desertjoy.nl), Bedouin, camels, meals, etc.)
  • Rooms before and after the desert journey
  • Group dinners before and after the desert journey
  • Transportation within Egypt (excluding airfare)

Participants must:

  • Be open and wonderful
  • Purchase your own flights into Sharm el Sheikh, arriving on or before March 27
  • Pay for your own visa ($25 – $35 upon arrival to Sharm el Sheikh airport)
  • Pay for your own travel insurance if desired
  • Confirm by February 1 with minimum $600 payment
  • Pay in full ($1,700) by February 1. (absolutely no later than February 15)
  • Bring sleeping bag + sleeping mat

A Possibility: 

  • We are now most likely ALSO doing this trip in mid October in addition to the March trip. So if that’s your preference, mention that in your message to me.


The #100Somethings Challenge Returns

Heads up: THIS SATURDAY (September 23), is the 100th day from the end of the year.

Around this time last year, a few hundred of us committed to doing one thing (in my case it was publishing a blog post) 100 times before the end of the year. We called it the #100Somethings Challenge and it was awesome. Some people did 100 sketches. Some people wrote 100 letters. Some people walked their dog 100 times. Some people got in 10,000 steps 100 times. We did so many somethings.

I didn’t complete my 100 blog posts, but I got more creative momentum than I’ve ever had in my life. That challenge had me activated. As a result I got in touch with Bruce D Schneider and the iPEC community, went through the entire iPEC coach training program, and got my first ebook sponsored.  It’s something I think I’ll continue to do every year starting each September. 

This year I decided to switch it up.

Instead of doing one thing 100 times, this year’s challenge [for those who dare to join me] will be a little more involved: I made a list of 100 different things I’ve committed to doing before the end of the year.

Some things are epic and daunting and exciting (like launching my YouTube channel / Vlog). And some things are easy (like asking for something I don’t think I’ll get). Either way though, everything on this list is something that made me feel good when I thought of it. Everything on this list is a small, deliberate investment in what matters to me. This list is designed to raise my energy and the energy of the people around me. And just like last year, my intention is to finish this year like a champion and bust into 2018 like a fireball. 


If you’re in, here are the rules:

  1. If you haven’t already, join the #100Somethings Facebook group.
  2. Make your list of 100 Somethings. I chose not to do any repeats, but just feel into what works for you.
    • If you started by Saturday, September 23, you’ll finish on time if you do one thing a day.
    • If you started after Saturday, September 23, you might need to double up a few times to finish on time.
  3. The day you start, post a picture or copy & paste your list in the #100Somethings Facebook group. This is part of our accountability agreement. We’ll all share our lists before and after.
  4. Track your progress! Every 25 days I will do a checkpoint and ask people to post pictures / progress updates on their lists.
  5. At the end of the 100 days (on 1/1/18), EVERYONE posts our lists on the Facebook group, even if we didn’t finish it. This is our accountability agreement. If you start, be prepared to post at the end. Bonus points if you include a little blurb or video about how it went. 
  6. Let the games begin!

Edit: I suspect fewer people will do this year’s challenge than last year’s—so if we get a good solid group of 15 or 20 of us, it’d be fun to experiment with some other ways to stay aligned like webinars, group coaching calls, etc. I’d love to learn what it takes to really see this through for those who are up for it.

Shout out to Teresa Marick for sparking my interest in re-launching the challenge ❤

Finding Your Feminine

This isn’t something I ever thought I’d write. The feminine-masculine discussion irritates me. It’s over-conceptualized and played out. Too many people talk about the ‘hyper masculinity’ of today’s world without bringing the discussion down to earth. It doesn’t make sense to vilify masculinity and—honestly—most feminist rhetoric is distracting and compensatory. The “soul sister” women’s empowerment stuff feels overkill imo and the movement to get men to “stop mansplaining” and whatever else is short-sighted and does more harm than good. To be clear, I say all that with affection. I was a super-educated feminist activist for a couple years and I’ve been involved in all different kinds of intentional women’s groups. Those phases got me to where I am now.

I find myself now feeling the most feminine I’ve ever felt in my life and it’s not what I thought it was. It’s wonderful and solid. It’s the most consistently confident and relaxed I’ve ever been. Knowing this experientially shows me how little I understood feminine energy before and it makes it clear how much we misunderstand the feminine as a society. My intention for this article is to describe what feminine feels like “from the inside” in order to reorient whatever conditioned stories you may have collected and—hopefully—give you access to something that feels like a bit of a hidden gem. This obviously applies to all people, not just women.

As you read this, take a suuuuper deep, suuuuuper slow breath and imagine being really old. You’re reminiscing on how beautiful your life has been. You’re proud of who you’ve been and who you are. The people in your life are fulfilled and grateful and wholehearted. You’re surrounded by love and wisdom and kindness. And you feel this deep conviction that things are right—everything is ok. There’s nothing that needs to be done or fixed or addressed. All you can see is the absolute inherent beauty and perfection in everything and everyone.

Can you feel this? When I do I feel my chest and my stomach relax. My eyes soften and I feel this pervasive, grounded confidence. It’s much different than the confidence I had for most of my life. It’s not loud or active. And it’s not relative to anything else. It’s simple and foundational. It’s generous and present. It comes with a naturally slow, deep breath and what feels like exponentially more bandwidth to share genuine love with others.

In others, feminine energy feels magnetic. You expand in their presence. You’re drawn to them because you can feel their relaxed, low-maintenance love and acceptance and support for you. They don’t need or expect anything from you. They’re present and lighthearted and real.

My favorite men have a ton of this. My favorite humans have a ton of this.

I’m still a tad reluctant to call this “feminine” energy instead of just “grounded” energy or “confidence”—but it honestly feels feminine. Motherly. Grandmotherly. It’s this chill, loving, real, uncomplicated, supportive presence—like nature.

How to tap into your feminine energy

Think of feminine energy like the foundation. It’s permanently there beneath everything—beneath your thoughts and opinions and experiences. It’s the ocean floor, not the waves. What’s cool about this is there’s never a lack of feminine energy. It’s always right there, beneath the surface. So if you feel scattered or mental or stressed or concerned, it’s because you’re surfing up on the waves. That doesn’t make the body of the ocean less present, it just means you’re not paying as much attention to it.

You can’t think your way there. It’s a feeling. Quiet your mind and chill tf out. There’s nothing to figure out or solve or fix. Slow down. Breathe. Feel gratitude and appreciation and love.

Feminine energy isn’t relative. Don’t compare your energy to anyone else’s. Don’t make stories about how masculine so-and-so is. (Just drop the whole masculine-feminine comparison entirely for the rest of your life matter of fact). Drop your thoughts and interpretations and biases. Feminine energy is beneath all that. And if you find yourself caught up in thoughts and comparisons, no worries. That’s the nature of feminine energy: it’s always right there. Available and supportive and loving and nonjudgmental and present.

Practice. Meditate. Look for excuses to soften into your feminine nature. Take advantage of catalysts that bring you up into the waves—use them to relax back into the water.

Photo credit goes to me #selfie